Zaf's Journal

Under Construction!
Not sure what I intend to do here. If it'd be art only or some mild personal stuff too, but I do occassionally like journaling.

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04/12/2025

It's been a while since I've worked on the site. I honestly forgot where I had made this and had to find it again. It's sort of funny looking at the code and wondering why certain things are that way. I only have a remedial and outdated knowlege of HTML. I noticed I had a lot of stuff in one paragraph bracket, but I doubt it's correct. But it seems to make no difference to formatting?
I've been having many thoughts. I don't think I want to write everything so publicly, even if no one I know will ever read this, and random people are unlikely to find this and contact me. But I do want to express something. I just feel like... Things are becoming wrong. More, that things have been wrong for a while. I've been in a place of limbo, hoping that the moments things were good were signs that I was on the right track... But I think that's probably a mistake. I just feel like things are probably coalescing to a new result, one with no real benefits, payoff, or meaning. Essentially, I feel as though I've wasted a lot of time, on things other than myself.